2nd August 2005,
Today busy day. Has been running up and down for the MSQH P&P and the CDR validation. Has been really tired. Seem that all that I've done lacking of support, from staff, from Management and from others. Sometimes just feel like giving up, pushing through, pushing hard yet it just seem can't get through. It's like pushing the huge giant wall, huge stone, huge barrier. What happen Lord? I know You're in this, surely You're with me, but why it's just so difficult to push through? Has been long, I am tired. Again, I am so tired of people. What is the lesson? Pls help! I couldn't push again, without You.
Just do my best, lower down my expectation, trying to motivate staff. Or love them. How to love them? Things not done accordingly, no standard. How to inspire this people when the boss is not inspired? I need Your inspiration Lord. Revive me again, Give me a fresh understanding and movitation. Only You able.